This is a question received from an individual, responded to by Janu and the Brotherhood of Light, and presented here to provide a more personal connection to these journeys. The response given is directed to that particular individual, and is presented for research purposes only.
Q: Having been present at my mother’s death, I feel I didn’t do enough for her, and I am haunted by my memories of her fighting for her life. Did she want to die? Was she supposed to die that day? Where is she and is she OK now? Does she have any message for me?
JANU: We are examining this circumstance of passing, of regret, of self-recrimination by family, and of the path of the beloved who has passed recently.
These many elements you describe are the fruits of an understanding that prevails today in so many, that life ends with the physical body. There is much conjecture about the ongoingness of life but when the moment approaches and arrives, the moment of truth, the truth of your perception is revealed. And the reality of your emotional and philosophical centering comes into play. Your beloved has not died in the sense of the ending of any aspect of her life save the physical journey. When one perceives one making the transition, what is it that you perceive but your beloved experiencing the failing of the physical and the identity shift from mortal being to immortality. Her demise is of her choosing and agreement between the her you knew as a personality and the soul and the spirit that she still is and always was.
There will come a time when you will embrace the fuller truth of the reality of the ongoingness of life and the freedom of each one to shape that experience. When your beloved appears confused and in fear, know for certain that the larger truth of her being is not in fear, is not confused and uncertain, and is that which continues into further adventures. This is true for you as well, dear one. Take this time and this lesson, this experience, to journey into the fuller understanding and ownership of it for your own life experience.
The loss that you feel and the self-recrimination, imagining your lack of fullest support for your beloved, is second guessing the situation. The what-ifs are never ending. One accomplishes what one may in the moment. If you had had this experience countless numbers of times, your contributions and your relationship with it might be somewhat different. But you have not, and you did and felt and said what was with you at each moment. Time spent with the what-ifs is not fruitful, for they have no reality. Be grateful and at peace with what you were able to share during that time. Your beloved knows your heart, even as we speak.
Now, as to her journey, where she is and her contentment. There will be, in due course, after some time of adjustment, a reconnoitering into re-embodiment. Her return will be in approximately seven years. Could be as early as three. There is a desire in the soul to re-engage the human experience rather quickly. She will return as female once more and engage in an adventure and locale she had entertained while in this most recent embodiment. Her enthusiasm for life and her re-connect with humanity is strong.
Her message for you at this moment is: Feel her enthusiasm for life and her next journey and see your own in this way. Be enthusiastic for what lies before you. Make the most of the rest of your life. And understand that her passing and the fear that you perceived was not the fear of the soul and her true being. Just a lack of understanding and embrace of what, to the personality, was the unknown.
The timing of the passing, as you requested, is the product of agreement. The agreement primarily in the beginning and proceeding of the process, not so much the exact moment. As to her desire to pass, the soul was expressing enthusiasm for the next adventure. The ego or personality concerns and ties to family can bring a tugging in the other direction and some confusion and a sense of losing contact. Thus, the fear. Preparation earlier in the life, in the larger way of understanding, the levels and realities of life, would better accommodate the passing experience.
She loves you dearly and always has. Be happy for her freedom and her joy for her next adventure. She is at peace and filled with joy and enthusiasm, and wishes you the same. She will visit you from time to time, to lift your heart and to help you free it of your doubts and regrets. They have no basis in reality from her point of view. Allow her to assist you in her way.
Greetings from the Brotherhood of Light and you will know the truth of life, for it is your truth as well, dear one. Good morning and namaste.
Feb. 28, 1997 Copyright © 2016 by Joshua Ross
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